Sunday, December 14, 2008

With Great Loss comes Great Hope

It seems that the past month and this last week have been filled with loss..loss of Cascade, loss of Cindy, loss of my job, and now the loss of Hadley. It seems strange that in this season of cheer and all things bright, I have seen more gloom than I had hoped for. I have come to grips with the fact that Cascade is closing and will not reopen it's doors, and I am "okay" with that fact that this Friday is my last day with my babies. Even though I chose to quit my job, it still breaks my heart in many ways. I am still wondering why God chose to take Cindy away, and that loss still makes me wonder what He is doing. And on Friday, sweet Hadley went home to be with Jesus. Even though she had been sick for a while, it still hurts and my heart grieves with the family. I can't imagine what her parents are feeling, her grandparents, her little brothers, her aunts and uncles, and all those that knew her. I can't imagine losing my sweet niece Anaiah, and this is where it hits me the hardest. Hadley was the niece of my sister in law- and when he married her, Hadley became Drew's niece as well. I I feel so bad that my brother is experiencing this- and all of the Fox family. They are a family I grew up knowing and feel so sad for this time in their life. With all of this going on, sometimes it is hard to look forward to what is going to happen next.
I do not know where I would be or what I would do with out the hope I have in Christ. It is becasue of Him that I can have the confidence to look towards the future and know that somehow, everything will be ok. It is with hope that I look forward to next month and traveling to Africa to see my sister. It is with hope that I look forward to the arrival of Abi, Nate and Kelsey- and then traveling to Idaho with them to see my family. It is with hope that I anticipate the birth of my sweet nephew. I am thankful for hope and that there is a tomorrow, whether it is here on earth, or in Heaven, I have hope. Hope was a word associated with Hadley. She showed me how to have hope in each day, and the love of Christ. Even though she is gone and will be greatly missed, this little girls spirit lives on and gives me hope for the days to come.